{"id":1033,"date":"2012-11-30T20:48:11","date_gmt":"2012-12-01T02:48:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/journeythroughtheobsidiandream.wordpress.com\/?p=1033"},"modified":"2012-11-30T20:48:11","modified_gmt":"2012-12-01T02:48:11","slug":"full-moon-musingsnovember-2012","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/journeythroughtheobsidiandream.com\/index.php\/2012\/11\/30\/full-moon-musingsnovember-2012\/","title":{"rendered":"Full Moon Musings\u2013November 2012"},"content":{"rendered":"

Over the course of the semester three new magical tools have come into my possession: a pentacle, a staff, and a black-handled knife.\u00a0 The pentacle I picked up at a swap-meet hosted by the local pagan store.\u00a0 The staff is hand-made by a fine gentleman in the local community, and was given to me as a gift.\u00a0 The knife was also a gift, a birthday present from another friend here in \"IMG_5583\"<\/a>Sunrise.\u00a0 These were my first clues that it was time to get back to my basics.\u00a0 I didn\u2019t ignore the message, per se; I just couldn\u2019t figure out how to enact it in the context of my current workload.<\/p>\n

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Wednesday night was the Full Moon.\u00a0 I tried to start my observances night before, as is generally my custom,\u00a0 but both my apartment and my brain were in such catastrophic disarray that it just wasn\u2019t possible.\u00a0 The night after was consumed by homework.<\/p>\n

My brain is in disarray because my life is on the brink of disaster\u2014a theme I\u2019ll get to another day\u2014but I decided that, rather than spend the Moon doing practical magic or begging for assistance, I would make offerings and just do a lot of listening before I beg for shit-tons favors.<\/p>\n

For a while, now, I\u2019ve been feeling a subtle call to go back to my roots, and to focus on integrating everything I\u2019ve learned over the last eighteen months.\u00a0 At first I resisted, thinking that the impulse might be cowardice, rather than genuine inspiration or even just the most rational thing to do right now.\u00a0 But it has taken me this entire time to recover from the Seven Spheres in Seven Days project, and that\u2019s more evidence than I can deny.\u00a0 Finally, I have given up and begun to answer that call.<\/p>\n

I began, first, by redoing my seasonal altar in a slightly more \u201ctraditional\u201d fashion [1].\u00a0 My Kouros and Cyclades figures remained \"IMG_5588\"<\/a>on my primary altar, but I did add gold and silver \u201cGod\u201d and \u201cGoddess\u201d candles, as well as examples of the traditional tools.\u00a0 In keeping with my own tradition of the last several years, the Death mask was returned to its hiding place, and the Sun God mask was elevated to the center stage.<\/p>\n

I opened my Esbat rites with the Titan\u2019s Cross and the Pentagram Rite (my \u201cnew normal\u201d), then cast my Circle with my new knife, half-dedicated at the Dark Moon, and called up each of the Elements through silent prayer, as has been my custom with Aradia.\u00a0 Finally, I performed the Rite of Offering [2], and just sat and listened\u2014drinking first a glass of wine in a toast to my friends and allies, then a glass of absinthe to open my astral vision.\u00a0 When moved to do so, I completed the dedication of my new ritual blade, then donned first my Vision Mask, followed the Sun God mask.<\/p>\n

Only one of my adventures with the Sun God mask have found their way to this blog.\u00a0 The other stories have been too mundane\"IMG_5584\"<\/a> or too intimate to share.\u00a0 The Sun God reveled in the opportunity to be embodied: he stretched and flexed my arms and back; he drank his libations and breathed deeply of the fumigations; he begged me insisted strongly that we make the opportunity to repeat some of those intimate adventures.\u00a0 He poured and guzzled another glass of wine, and would have devoured all the ready-to-eat food in my house, had there been any.\u00a0 He insisted that his image be recorded and shared.<\/p>\n

He released me at last when I began to weaken, but the message was clear: he\u2014and the other powers I have connected to, but him most immediately\u2014is the next phase of my Work.<\/p>\n

Although I regret that Project Null must be officially sent to the back burner, I seem to have made the right decision in answering that call: the results were phenomenal.\u00a0 For the previous several days, the combined stress of personal drama and the end of the semester had reduced me to a neurotic mess of obsessive behaviors and procrastination.\u00a0 Over the two days since, I have been much more able to concentrate on my work, and have spent much less time on the razor edge of a breakdown.\u00a0 And, as I said before: it would be antithetical to Chaos Magick to reject something that was actually working<\/em> in favor of sticking to a theoretical plan<\/em>.\u00a0 The Chaos Magick experiment continues, just more slowly and organically, growing out of my needs and the inspiration of my Genii and Muses.<\/p>\n

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1 \u2013 Recalling that, while I have never really identified as such, most of my early sources of inspiration and information were books and practitioners of eclectic Wicca.<\/p>\n

2 \u2013 Adapted from Jason Miller\u2019s Sorcerer\u2019s Secrets (p.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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