I got my first college care package this week.\u00a0 Of course it was from Aradia.\u00a0 She quoted Adrianne Rich for me at length:<\/p>\n
\nNight-life. Letters, journals, bourbon
sloshed in the glass. Poems crucified on the wall,
dissected, their bird-wings severed
like trophies. No one lives in this room
without living through some kind of crisis. <\/p>\nNo one lives in this room
without confronting the whiteness of the wall
behind the poems, planks of books,
photographs of dead heroines.
Without contemplating last and late
the true nature of poetry. The drive
to connect. The dream of a common language.<\/p>\n–Origins of History and Conciousness<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n
She muses about whether the room\u201dis the space one inhabits or the the Creative Mind itself.\u00a0 It is both.\u00a0 It is my too-dark, faux-wood paneled living room with the bright white cinderblock wall in front of which I built my altar.\u00a0 It is the echoing cavern of madness where I listen to my muses and transcribe their nearly-incomprehensible wails onto the lining of my skull.\u00a0 It is more.<\/p>\n
It is also my life here: a white room with two doors.\u00a0 One of the doors locked behind me when I came in, though there is a fire-ax hanging beside it, the words \u201cBreak In Case of FUBAR\u201d painted carefully in white-and-red across the class.\u00a0 I haven\u2019t found the other door yet, only the walls.\u00a0 Empty walls marked by a few snapshots \u2013 faces of people who might be friends or enemies or (worst of all) indifferent \u2013 and scattered windows I can\u2019t quite see out of.<\/p>\n
She goes on to quote Lorrie Moore: \u201cThis is good for your writing.\u201d<\/p>\n
Of course it is.\u00a0 No matter how good or bad it gets.\u00a0 And whether at the end of this period I go on, as planned, to a Masters in History and a Doctorate in Greek mystery cults; if I end up selling my writing much earlier than I can comprehend; or if the world as we know it ends, and I find myself presiding over a temple of freaks, geeks, and survivalists who aren\u2019t quite sure how I ended up in charge.\u00a0 This is good for my writing.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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