My time working with the Moon and Yesod has been … scattered. This will probably come as little surprise to anyone who’s done a lot of Moon work. It’s been very difficult for me to stay focused on any one thing for very long, and I’ve had much more trouble than usual following through with my intentions.
After maintaining a daily practice for two solid months—one of prep work and one of Malkuth—I have fallen almost entirely off the horse. I’ve been doing better this week: I’ve gotten up and performed my daily rituals for five days out of the last seven, and I’m getting back on top of daily journaling (at least in the mornings).
My emotional state has been … changeable. Emotionally speaking, I’ve gotten more fully entangled in some things (people) than I originally intended; fortunately that’s mostly gone for the best despite lack of planning. In the thrall of the Moon, I’ve struggled with insomnia and depression—though, granted, both of these are as attributable to the stress of mid-semester crunch time. As I shift into Hod for December that stress is only going to get worse.
My Abramelin oil is coming along nicely. The charge on that stuff is … interesting. I look forward to using it in earnest and seeing what happens.
The Middle Pillar and Circulation of the Body of Light exercises have been incredibly helpful to me, and will probably remain a part of my practice even when I’m done with this ceremonial experiment. I speculated at the beginning of the month as to whether those rituals would have helped with the trouble that the LBRP gave me. I no longer believe that to be the case. While they might have sufficed to balance out someone of a different magical and spiritual background, I have become convinced that there was something about the interaction between my magic and the LBRP which was uniquely problematic.
My Magical Storytelling exercise has been … interesting. I haven’t made it nearly as far into NaNoWriMo as I had hoped (not quite 15,000 words of 50,000), but I’ve had a few interesting insights while pursuing the project. As part of those joined projects, I’ve written incomplete drafts of three hymns: two to Dionysos and one to the multitudinous Muses.
As the Dark Moon approaches, I am preparing to do the journeywork portions of the Yesod rites. I do not anticipate them going even as well as the Malkuth journeys, whose peculiarities I have still not resolved. I will be bringing some Moon issues into my study of Hod.